Special Day

July 3, 1990 something very special happened. I had a baby girl at 5:20pm . Having a baby is one of the most significant experiences in any womans life. I make it a habit to ask women about their birth stories and it never fails, I don't care how old the woman is, she can tell you what the weather was like that day. What the room looked like where she gave birth and the smell of the air the moment it happened. It is as if the world had always been blue and suddenly it changed to a different color. That is how it was for me all five times. Each human is a miracle and to be a part of a miracle somehow makes you special. I think that is the biggest feeling I connect with motherhood is that on that special day each time it made me special. This precious tiny person would be entrusted to me and I wanted so much for their life to be all it could be. Motherhood doesn't change much ! My kids are 16-23 and I still feel anxious when they try new things, make decisions and fall down. I get just as excited about new jobs, good grades, new friends as I did when they learned to roll over or finally sleep through the night. I may be rambling it is after midnight and my mind has me back 18 yrs ago hoping my baby girl would have hair and there Ellie was.... the most beautiful baby girl with lots of dark hair. Her birth was very difficult for both of us but the quiet time afterwards was a peace I don't think I will ever forget. Our kids grow up so fast. A very wise woman once told me that You can only love them as much as you can love them in every stage. I try to remember that when I am sad that a stage has passed. Whether it is the preschool years and having to learn to love the school years....or saying goodbye to childhood and learning to love their adulthood. Every stage of life needs patience and prayer to get to the next stage. I am going to enjoy my baby girl on her birthday and celebrate my family ! I hope you all enjoy your families for the 4th of July and hug your kids !!

Cindy